Hannah Aubut

Hannah Aubut is an expatriate who followed her heart (and head) to Montreal. She’s a lover of iced coffee in January, the scientific method, freshly mopped floors, and bulky sweaters. In 2016, she was told that her full-term daughter had died while still nestled in her womb. She gave birth to Senna at 41 weeks gestation. 10 months later, she gave birth a second time, to Cyan. Her experience as a loss mother, a PPD survivor, and an advocate for mental health and social justice has led her to be an aspiring social worker and hobby writer. She’s your typical token “mom friend” who makes the best banana bread you’ve ever had, cries alone in the shower, and believes true happiness starts at home. Contact her for collaboration or just to chat at hannahaubut@gmail.com.
And be sure to check out her amazing work with Ann Hughes at the Infant Loss Photography Project.

Dear Rainbow Baby, It’s Not Your Job to Repair My Broken Heart

Dear Rainbow Baby, You are not a resolution to hard times, nor the means to the end of my grief. Listen to me when I tell you, your purpose is inherently your own and is not tied to repairing me. You were not born with a job. We do not desire you to be a replacement.

What It’s Like Having a Baby after Stillbirth

"How in the world could I go through losing a child, but yet feel such ambivalence towards the child I have who is breathing? This is postpartum depression." Read more of Hannah's Aubut's story of loss, love, and the pain of moving forward.