Pregnancy after miscarriage or infertility can be a serious mind . . . game. Yeah, sure, that’s the word I was thinking of. It’s a time when you’re hopeful to healthily birth a baby, and when others expect you to feel great excitement. But with the hope of pregnancy after miscarriage often comes anxiety. Sometimes crippling anxiety.
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In this article, we’ll talk about some of the most common questions I get about pregnancy after miscarriage.
- Trying to conceive (ttc) after miscarriage
- Physical effects of pregnancy after miscarriage
- Emotional impact of pregnancy after miscarriage
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Trying to conceive after miscarriage is such a weird beast.
You now know (if your loss was your first pregnancy) that you can get pregnant, and yet, your confidence in your body is at a pretty low point.
People experience vastly different emotions during this time. I know many moms who had to miss recurrent miscarriage testing that was scheduled because they were so desperate for a new pregnancy that they couldn’t wait to try again. I know others who are terrified of trying to conceive again, or who absolutely do not want to.
No matter what you feel, please know that your feelings are valid. It’s all okay. Feel what you feel.
Once you decide you’re ready to try again, learn the best ways to track ovulation. Also, our the downloadable comparison chart of ovulation testing methods can help you quickly and easily find the right method for you!
Timing TTC After Loss
Although I’ve seen reactions of all types, the most common that I see is women who want to try again immediately. Someone just asked this question in one of my miscarriage groups today: “Can I ovulate after miscarriage?”
She was flooded with responses, as well as with people practically online shouting at her that she should not try to conceive yet. Which leads to another common question: “How fast can you get pregnant after a miscarriage?”
If you’re ready to try again, you likely have the same questions.
Yes, you will ovulate after your miscarriage and before your next menstrual period. Do I recommend trying to conceive during that time? No. Is it the end of the world if you do? Definitely not.
How fast can you get pregnant? I learned the hard way that it can happen immediately, before you even have another period, although most doctors strongly recommend against that.
Most research indicates it’s best to wait 1 cycle (that is, have 1 normal period) before trying again.
Why Wait 1 Cycle?
- Your body, heart, and soul need to heal. You likely will not feel relieved when you discover a new pregnancy. Instead, you’ll probably feel anxious and scared. Giving yourself time will help you grapple with your complex emotions.
- Dating your pregnancy will be very difficult with no idea when you ovulated. This isn’t the worst case scenario, but it does make it tougher to determine a due date, and to know when to expect to see a heartbeat on an ultrasound. So, you may be subject to additional anxiety if you don’t see a heartbeat because you aren’t sure if you should yet.
Long story short, the recommendations are different, but most research now suggests that it’s perfectly healthy to try again after 1 normal period. This was also my doctor’s stance.
Many doctors say 3 months, and others say 6. Physiologically, though, these ideas are largely being debunked.
If you had an especially complicated loss (e.g. a molar pregnancy, retained products of conception after loss, surgery for an ectopic pregnancy, or required the use of toxic drugs like methotrexate), your doctor may suggest you wait longer.
As always, refer to your medical care team for advice on your own personal situation. But trust me, I get it. Waiting feels SO hard! Remember, practice some self care, give yourself some love, and take it one day at a time.
Should I Track Ovulation When TTC After Miscarriage?
Ultimately, this is your call.
My experience is that many women find it comforting to track ovulation when trying to conceive after miscarriage. But be sure tracking ovulation is healthy for you!
If you find yourself obsessing over getting pregnant because of ovulation tracking, I highly recommend against it. You’re actually making yourself more anxious by tracking, as I’ll explain in a minute.
But if you’re already obsessing, but you’re obsessing about an app that may or may not be accurate, then tracking might be right for you. Or, if you aren’t the obsessive type, then it may also be a fit (although you may be less interested.)
How to Track Ovulation
There are many methods for tracking ovulation. Apps did me no good.
Tracking your basal body temperature with a basal body thermometer is the cheapest option. Pros: Cost and ability to verify ovulation. Cons: It takes a few months of learning your cycle for this method to be an accurate predictor of ovulation.
Ovulation test strips are the next least expensive choice. They didn’t work well for me, but they do for most people. Pros: Cost and ease of access. Cons: you can’t verify whether you ovulated once they indicate that you will ovulate (which can be a tricky part of ovulation tracking).
Ovulation predictor kits are more expensive, but also more reliable.
I had tremendous success with the Ovacue Fertility Monitor. Pros: Accuracy and ability to verify ovulation date at end of month. Cons: Expensive and minimally invasive (requires an oral probe first thing each morning and a vaginal probe a few mornings per month.)
As much as I loved my success with Ovacue, if we try again (and that’s a big if), I’ll likely use the Ava Fertility Bracelet, which I’ve seen people have great success with, but have never personally used. Pros: Ease of use. Cons: Expensive. (I cannot personally speak to accuracy or ability to verify ovulation.)
Your Body During Pregnancy After Miscarriage
The good news is that your physical experience with pregnancy after miscarriage is not likely to be any different than your experience with pregnancy would’ve been otherwise.
The bad news is that you’ll likely be more aware of every single thing your body does. We feel every pain, every twinge, notice every tightness, and often wonder about its implications.
How can your body go through the trauma of loss without you developing a heightened awareness of all its doings?
After miscarriage, many women report feeling like their bodies failed them, and thus, they fear it will fail them again.
Expecting your Body to Fail
When discussing the miscarriage she experienced 20 years ago in her new book, Becoming, former First Lady Michelle Obama says she felt like she had “failed.”
And let’s be honest. If the illustrious Michelle Obama felt like her body had failed her after miscarriage, most of us feel that way too. Also, seriously, if you haven’t read her book yet, order it now.
I’ll wait. (She also narrates the audiobook, which I loved.)
Because we’re constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop, we often find ourselves expecting the worse.
This expectation leads to the emotional ramifications of pregnancy after miscarriage–namely, the anxiety that is so confusingly intermingled with the hope this new pregnancy brings.
It’s important for the sake of pregnancy loss awareness that women understand that many women feel guilty after their losses, as if the loss were somehow the mother’s fault. (IT WASN’T!)
Anxiety During Pregnancy After Miscarriage
Some women (like me) use pessimism as a form of self-protection while going through such traumatic experiences.
We hope for the best but expect the worst, assuming then we’ll never be as let down. This method helps minimize the pain if something goes wrong, but it also prevents you from enjoying the experience of pregnancy.
Other women, like many of my friends, optimistically choose to hope things will go better this time. This approach makes the pregnancy more fun, but also provides less protection if there’s a problem.
I don’t know if I think you can choose which approach you take, but I do believe you can understand the cycles of anxiety you experience enough to at least feel less controlled by it.
You see, regardless of whether you’re the pessimist or the optimist, you’re still more likely to experience anxiety during pregnancy after miscarriage than a pregnant woman who has never experienced fertility complications.
Our brains have been trained to expect the worst from pregnancy, especially if you lost our first pregnancy and, thus, loss is all you’ve ever known.
Even if we tell ourselves that we’re “finally pregnant,” or “finally past the X week mark,” and thus can remain calm, the subconscious parts of our brains remain on high alert.
What do I mean when I say “subconscious”? I created this simple graphic to help illustrate how the mind works.
Note: There are varying names for different parts of the brain in different schools of psychological theory, and many people would suggest I’m excluding the very important “unconscious.” But for the sake of simplicity, I’ll stick with these two. They’re comfortable for me and much easier to follow. Also, this graphic is based on my own research and understanding, but I am not trained in psychology or psychiatry, and I’m sure plenty who are would laugh at my simplification.
Your conscious brain does the thinking you can access. Your subconscious stays on the physical and emotionally ready to keep you alive. It’s our survival mechanism.
But sometimes, the subconscious makes life really, really, really hard.
Pregnancy after miscarriage is one of those times.
Why Pregnancy After Miscarriage Can Produce so Much Anxiety
And here’s why this matters for women who are pregnant after infertility or loss.
The subconscious goes with what it knows, and what it knows is that you and reproductivity are not friends.
So no matter how you consciously handle your pregnancy–whether you’re excited to finally have your own baby shower and decorate a nursery, or you refuse to buy a single item until your baby has been born–your subconscious expects problems, and thus, is always looking for them.
It wants to be sure it can alert you if something is amiss, believing the warning it gives might make the difference and save your pregnancy.
It’s not that we walk around convinced that something bad will happen; we’re simply on high alert in a part of our mind that we can’t directly access.
This is why so many women experiencing pregnancy after loss or infertility experience anxiety, despite the people around us expecting us to feel excitement and joy. It’s why many women hesitate to share the news, even with the closes family and friends.
How Can I Manage Pregnancy After Miscarriage Anxiety?
Understanding how anxiety works, and why you’re experiencing it, is a big step in the right direction.
For specific ideas to make it through your pregnancy, learn about coping with pregnancy anxiety after miscarriage.
To better understand your vulnerability during this time, and to feel less alone in it, learn about the emotional turmoil that can come with having a rainbow baby.
If you made friends in the loss community and are currently pregnant, that can be tricky as well. Check out our article on what to do if your friend had a miscarriage but you’re currently pregnant for tried and true advice.
Did you experience heightened anxiety during pregnancy after loss? Tell us about your experience in the comments!
Katy Huie Harrison, PhD, is an author, mom, recurrent miscarriage survivor, & owner of Undefining Motherhood. She lives in Atlanta with her husband (affectionately known on the internet as “Husband,”) son (Jack), and dog (Charlotte). She believes our society puts too many expectations on women that make womanhood and motherhood restrictive. Her goal is to shift the paradigm about what it means to be a woman and mother, giving all women a greater sense of agency over their own lives. You can find Katy and her work featured in places like CNN’s Headline News, Romper, Scary Mommy, Demeter Press’s Motherhood and Social Exclusion, & more.